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The idea of servitude is distasteful to you

won't bow / don't know how

In that moment the fleeting thought comes to me to destroy Morel and/or Lancaster just because it was their shenanigans that got me into this nonsense but that is more like something I would have thought in the old days less like an actual idea

this empathy thing is not doing me any favours

Secret missions and mysterious briefings and none of this is what I do / I work in the open, in politics / how am I supposed to do any of this

later, under roofbeams like a ribcage I listen to his words / calm myself and hear the voices in my blood / the steady roll of the Claudiani

old fathers, hard rulers and wise counsellors, visionaries and killers and madmen, be with me now, oh be with me now

nothing changes

won't bow / don't know how