writing_shadows

I do think about desire a lot.

It's part of my duty, I think, as Paragon, to consider. It is the emotion we're most meant to represent.

It's something I'm not very good with. But I think about it a lot.

Desire can be dangerous, destructive. It isn't always; sometimes it is creative, sometimes it is kind. But in wounded people, in people like us, there's a tendency to tear down everything we can.

Desire can be shameful, or at least it's very common to be ashamed of your desires. I'm ashamed of some of mine too.

Desire can burn you up, like fire, until all your thoughts are of your desire, and you can't do anything else or see beyond it.

When desire is consummated, it can be cast aside, used up and forgotten. Or it can keep burning, taking up not just all you think, but all you do, and how you act with other people. It can ruin you.

That is what I represent to people. I don't know if they think of it that way; I think they think I am kind, and pretty, and naive, and someone to be protected, someone to fight for. Maybe I am. I'm trying to be.

But I know what it will lead to. I can't stop it.

I just want to.