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Rose.

If you are reading this, then I'm dead. I want you to know, above all else, I love you. Loved you. Regardless of what happened, and even if it was the trial that meant I got executed, I love you. I would not take back the decision to be your brother for anything, there is nothing so valuable I could be offered as to walk away from you by choice. You have been my friend and my family, and without you I would not have made it as far as I did. I have gone away, but I want you to know that I am glad of the time I knew you, and I was proud to be your brother. I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise not to leave you. Please forgive me.

Pray for me that god will take pity on this old sinner and let me into heaven. If he does, then I know I'll be waiting for you when you come to join me. But I don't mind waiting a good long while, so no hurry.

I want you to know, it's okay to be upset. But I don't want you to be upset forever, or blame yourself. I didn't think I would make it through the year, and it turns out I didn't. But that's not your fault. I made the oath that dragged me into helping Aria, not you. So don't blame yourself. I mean that part.

Remember, if things get difficult, I will be watching over you, and will be there in spirit where I couldn't be in the flesh. I wish I could help you more, or protect you, but I can't. But you are strong enough to do it yourself. In the time I have met you I have watched you grow so much, to a wonderful, capable woman I knew at the end. You don't need me, it was always me that needed you. I am so proud of you, and the woman you have become.

I hope that things can get easier for you, and that you are happy and safe. I wish you a good life.. I love you, and always will.

Sam