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writing_shadowsHe could feel himself slipping, the soil under his feet falling away and he scrabbled a little as he quickly gained purchase on the loose ground again. The moment and metaphor wasn’t lost on him. If he had slipped it would have been disastrous. If he slipped it would be disastrous.
That was what scared him the most. The descent. Once he was there it would be comforting, encircling him like a warm blanket, it would welcome him like an old friend. But the thought of the descent scared him and he had already begun to fall. Would he be able to stop it once it started?
He expanded his senses, his eyesight improving dramatically and he let a smile appear on his lips. He only smiled properly away from the rest of them. It was seen as frivolous, a waste of effort, a luxury that wasn’t afforded. In the company of others it was normally a mocking smirk at the idiots or a faint, amused condescending expression. He loved the abilities he had. The powers he had been given by being Damned. The ability to view Gods Work in such detail, to be able to almost feel the very world itself, to touch the perfection that he was no longer a part of.
He continued to smile as he watched despite what he was viewing he found utterly repellent. The vessel was inching its way across his vision. He continued to smile as he moved the bolt action, never taking his eyes off the vessel or the figure inside it. He continued to smile as he raised the rifle to his shoulder and took aim.
The smile faded from his face. Part of him was disappointed as he lowered the barrel a few moments later. Part of him was relieved for not falling further. Part of him prayed for a souls salvation. Part of him watched those still on the bank pay their respects and then walk off. They would not be welcoming another into their family this evening.
As he slipped silently away the thoughts of family turned his mind to a different duty. He wondered if this evening would be the one she arrived. He had something he wished to speak to her of.
Was he a disappointment to her as she was to him?
That was what scared him the most. The descent. Once he was there it would be comforting, encircling him like a warm blanket, it would welcome him like an old friend. But the thought of the descent scared him and he had already begun to fall. Would he be able to stop it once it started?
He expanded his senses, his eyesight improving dramatically and he let a smile appear on his lips. He only smiled properly away from the rest of them. It was seen as frivolous, a waste of effort, a luxury that wasn’t afforded. In the company of others it was normally a mocking smirk at the idiots or a faint, amused condescending expression. He loved the abilities he had. The powers he had been given by being Damned. The ability to view Gods Work in such detail, to be able to almost feel the very world itself, to touch the perfection that he was no longer a part of.
He continued to smile as he watched despite what he was viewing he found utterly repellent. The vessel was inching its way across his vision. He continued to smile as he moved the bolt action, never taking his eyes off the vessel or the figure inside it. He continued to smile as he raised the rifle to his shoulder and took aim.
The smile faded from his face. Part of him was disappointed as he lowered the barrel a few moments later. Part of him was relieved for not falling further. Part of him prayed for a souls salvation. Part of him watched those still on the bank pay their respects and then walk off. They would not be welcoming another into their family this evening.
As he slipped silently away the thoughts of family turned his mind to a different duty. He wondered if this evening would be the one she arrived. He had something he wished to speak to her of.
Was he a disappointment to her as she was to him?
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