[Requiem] Danny Kovacs: Fear fatigue
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Every time I walk through these doors / different doors / idea's the same
Every time is like the first: these monsters
Then: Sap / Albinus / whoever and they all want you to be afraid
or even if they don't they like it
Fuck you
It's the end of the world as we know it: fuck you.
Boy I just love to grab a bitch by the throat: fuck you.
I have some ancient evil secrets: fuck you.
Ancient warlord blah de I don't even give a fuck: fuck you.
Oh, my lovingly detailed tortures: fuck you, you fucking fuck.
I am a pretty reasonable guy / at least that's what I've always said / but seriously
Fuck the lot of youse
Of course I'm afraid / all the goddamn time
Snipers on the rooftops / cameras in the windows / traitors among my friends / taps on my phones / the Ancient, coiled inside me like a cancer / Violet burned to ash for nothing / my whole goddamned life like a hall of mirrors where the mirrors are razor shards seeking my eyes / always MOTHER always MOTHER
You don't know why you do it / but you do it because you want us in our places / or because you're scared of yours
I have no sympathy
I hid for a long time / played along for a long time / didn't care for a long time / acted like I didn't give a fuck
But I do
And I am putting (inwardly) you cunts on notice
Your bullshit poisons us and there just isn't time for it any more
Sick to goddamn death of being afraid / of seeing the ones I have to protect afraid / and if the interaction of my boot and your face (metaphorical -- fuck do you think I am?) can end it then I have a
responsibility
to do that
That goes double for you, Big Red Bastard
NON SERVIAM
Yeah.