(Lost) The rest is silence.

[akonken.livejournal.com]

The memory of the little grey mens' hands and instruments as they probed her, somehow lascivious. She was proud of herself when she pulled herself out of her reverie, remembered that it was the past and she was all right now, even though when she'd begun paying attention again she was left grasping at threads of conversation she didn't really understand at all.

And then "...There's a fairy on your bag," Nemoa said quietly. Rose looked down, and it was true. She'd forgotten, didn't even see the picture any more these days except as a flash of pink. She thought - but could never, ever say - about how the picture, about how the words "Wish you were here" had drawn her to the bag at first. She thought about how it had slowly faded - no, how it had been replaced by her life since - in her conscious mind, and had just become the thing in which she carried Spring's notebook and pen, and all the rest. Now she couldn't stop looking at the fey face, feeling slightly nauseated. Finally she turned it to face the other way. Tomorrow she would get a new bag.

And then the love between Adrianne and Galehaut, and Adrianne and Harper, and Rosie and Alex. It was too bright, too warm. She hadn't thought about that, hadn't realised it would be painful. She should have realised it was too soon to be happy for them completely.

And then Snaggle blaming Rosie for so much death. She was proud of herself again, briefly, when she'd asked him not to say that, but quickly defeated when he'd rightly told her he could say whatever he wanted.

And then Rosie herself, needing her to be happy and excited about a wedding that wouldn't come, to plan for it. Even Rosie had doubts, even she said that someone always dies before the wedding. But Rose tried her best to do what her sister wanted.

And then the argument about whether to kill the people who could see them, the rage from Mr Sleete blistering. It was always death. It was always death, and she couldn't stop it. She wrapped her hand around her knife, feeling a little soothed until people came over to try to make her feel better, to rescue her from the pain. It made it worse.

But then a thought suddenly struck her. She could stop it. Maybe. At least for a little while. She prayed to Spring, and felt him answer, felt him whisper in Mr Sleete's ear, saw Mr Sleete leave the room and return a few minutes later with a sandwich. She'd done it. It would be okay, at least for now.

And now. Now she is going to have dinner and see Hamlet with a friend she didn't realise until today that she had. She loves Shakespeare. She's always loved Shakespeare.

She wants to do this. The rest falls away.

Comments

[colonel-maxim.livejournal.com]

There are going to be a lot of sandwiches. :-)

[becky-spence.livejournal.com]

Awww....but, you know, only Rose could swap murder for sandwich....

[akonken.livejournal.com]

:D Pretty much!

[sl4irl.livejournal.com]

I adore this!

[annwfyn.livejournal.com]

Poor Rose. I do feel sort of bad for being such a vile IC friend!

[akonken.livejournal.com]

Aw, it's fun! At least she's doing this with one of Rosie's nicer exes. ;)

[akonken.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :)

[akonken.livejournal.com]

It's for the best! Honest.

[annwfyn.livejournal.com]

I must say, my Rosie brain is very enthused about Rose going to the theatre with Kieran. It has occured to her that there is one possible outcome which could solve everything. And by that, I mean, nearly everything that Rosie actually considers really important right now.

~hopeful eyes~

[annwfyn.livejournal.com]

And yes! Rose going to the theatre with Drago would be bad!

[akonken.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

[akonken.livejournal.com]

... *fears*

[lslaw.livejournal.com]

Is he starting a collection or something?

[akonken.livejournal.com]

Huh?

[lslaw.livejournal.com]

I may be entirely mistaken of course, but I don't think he's left a game this weekend without a date with a Spring paragon.

[akonken.livejournal.com]

You are entirely mistaken, or Kieran was in two places at once!

[akonken.livejournal.com]

...Or you could be talking about Hatfield. Duh.

But this is not a date, or at least Rose doesn't consider it to be. Mind you, a lot of the activities she does with friends might be considered by some to be dates, or date-like.

[akonken.livejournal.com]

...That sounds a whole lot dirtier than I meant it! Like, at all.

[lslaw.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure the other is strictly a date either, despite the hooting from the peanut gallery.

[blane-firewing.livejournal.com]

That was lovely :)

I have been much enjoying Tegan's scene with Rose, it has been fun :)

[elizathemekhet.livejournal.com]

Rose deserves a night out! Enjoy...

[akonken.livejournal.com]

To be fair, nights out is something she does get! And they do help.

[andyrebranded.livejournal.com]

Given the survival rate of Rose's partners, how would that be a good thing? Not that it hasn't crossed Kieran's mind of course...

[akonken.livejournal.com]

Hey! There is a 50% survival rate! Mind you, that 50% is evil... ;)

[akonken.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

Me too. And don't worry, Rose isn't consciously considering Tegan a Project...

[andyrebranded.livejournal.com]

As high as 50%? So my choices would be dead or evil?

[akonken.livejournal.com]

The four people she's been in a relationship with are:

Domdaniel
Sallow
Stitches
Lorica

But yeah, pretty much!

[andyrebranded.livejournal.com]

Domdaniel??

[akonken.livejournal.com]

Ask him about her sometime. :D

But yeah, they sort of 'courted' when she was fresh out of the Hedge.

[andyrebranded.livejournal.com]

It's not. Just a day out involving fast cars and alcohol, though not at the same time.

[andyrebranded.livejournal.com]

That would involve talking to him... I don't think Kieran has ever had a conversation with him.

[akonken.livejournal.com]

You can do smoochings without talking to someone, you know. In fact, it's easier. ;)

It was doomed for failure. She just didn't know any better. Which is why she went out with Sallow next(ish).

[annwfyn.livejournal.com]

But then Kieran isn't a soldier. He isn't honour or duty bound to go and kill things. So it would be fine. ~nods nods nods~

[andyrebranded.livejournal.com]

But Kieran only dates fairest. Mind you, she is awfully cute...

[annwfyn.livejournal.com]

She is very cute. And practically the pin up girl for the whole venue.

[akonken.livejournal.com]

...This conversation is becoming ever so slightly unsettling.

[annwfyn.livejournal.com]

Shhhhh....shhhhhh....it'll all be fine. I am totally not pimping your character in any way, shape or form.

[andyrebranded.livejournal.com]

Can I expect the hard sell IC as well? :P

[akonken.livejournal.com]

It wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't you on behalf of Rosie OOC and Venice IC! O_O

[annwfyn.livejournal.com]

To be fair, I mostly smelled potential Interesting Future Role Play and just started typing. But you have now mentioned Venice and that is a very good point. ~is all enthused~

[andyrebranded.livejournal.com]

Oh dear. Venice's assistance is not needed. Not that I expect that to stop her.