A Bleached Clean Afternoon
Aug. 19th, 2010 11:30 am![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png)
Back in the house from his gardening; that steady ritual & the slowest I’ve ever seen him. It’s one of the few part of his life I’ve never really had access to: he’d give it if I asked him, but I’ve no interest, and he seems happier with some time spent alone. He told me it was a kind of tidiness he was still getting his head around, a little like he felt towards me. Might be one of the sweetest things he’s ever said to me.
Bleach whipped out again, scent of it striking my nostrils. Supposedly things get stronger for the likes of me, but that just ended up with that caustic shudder becoming engraved. Never really free of it, never really a moment with him off completely my mind. Today was a light day, but as he swept by (rustle of dry cloth across the pungent white fluid, paper crackle from his wipe-clean suit) the aroma left me reeling.
Fighting off the nausea I refrained from the twin urges to collapse to the floor or grab at his hand. Some wincing and waiting is required in these things…Just feel relieved that someone’s picking up the slack.